i find running-themed internet memes to be a little absurd, but sometimes they speak to me in ways that make me hate myself a little. for example, this particular meme got me wondering what i actually look like when i run. i guess it’s kind of like how people like looking at photos taken of them when they’re caught unawares. i too want to see how i appear when i’m not trying to look cool and composed. these are the moments that i’m interested in seeing, how people see me doing my usual thing.
after wrapping up saturday’s trail run upstate, i asked todd to take a video of me, so i could check out my running form. while todd was setting up the shot, i stood at my imaginary starting line, suddenly feeling a little self conscious.
even though i might think this is how i look when i run, i was feeling overly aware of my arms and legs while sprinting down the path. i wasn’t doing my usual thing at all.
just last fall, i converted from heel striking to forefoot running, so i make little tapping sounds with my feet on the pavement and lean forward slightly from my ankles. i also learned very recently that my arm swing should mimic the action of elbowing someone behind me. these newly acquired techniques have changed the way i move my body. not only do these techniques keep me injury-free, but i’m a faster and more efficient runner. since this works for me, i should let go of being so concerned about what other people think. the angsty, non-conforming teenager in me would be so proud.